My first reaction was joy. I looked up and there he was right in front of me.
Then he said those words "Can we take a walk outside?" My heart sank, my stomach went into free fall...omg what does he think he's found? I haven't hidden anything, have nothing to hide...nothing at all...
So outside we go.
The he breaks down into tears "OKM, I'm so, so sorry", he says. "It's ok baby, what is it?" "I'm sorry" he says again
By now I'm convinced he's leaving me. I mean what else could it be?
"I found Neo on the road this morning, he'd been hit by a car" he says.
Neo is my 13 year old black and white cat. He was my first "rescue" right out of vet school, when he broke his leg and needed it amputating aged 5 wks. We kept him, because the owners had him as a farm cat and couldn't justify paying to treat him. We operated, and saved him. And I loved him for 13 years.
And now he's gone, 3 weeks after our baby girl, Eva, was killed the same way.
Huh? I mean really, wtf?
I can't believe this has happened. I'm so grateful LH is not leaving me. I can't believe that is my first thought still, especially after him giving me forgiveness.
Infidelity sucks. It leaves us WSs with the legacy that the BS may leave at any time despite the effort and hard work. Despite their desire to R and forgive. It always haunts us, back there somewhere, even when I'm not really conscious of it.
Loss sucks. These are just cats right? Nope. They're my family. I don't have kids. I had 2 cats and have 2 dogs. Someone on here called them furrykids. That's what they are to me. My girl and my boy were my furry kids, and now they're gone. That's sucks so bad.
LH is being amzing. He found Neo on the road 10mins after he'd seen him in our garden. He picked him up; cleaned the mess on the road and buried him next to our baby burmese. He then called my work to get them to hold me there so he could tell me in person. He tried to do all the right things and he so did. He took the day off so he could be wth me today. That was lovely, especially as my last call was putting someone's loved eldery Shetland pony to sleep today.
Thank you LH. Love you. And our little furry family; present and past. x
[This message edited by OktoberMest at 3:50 PM, July 10th (Wednesday)]
And I'm glad that you and LH have each other.
Hugs.
(((OKM)))
I am glad, though, that you have each other to lean on.
(((hugs))) to you both.
Mark Twain
Me-BS 54 Him-WS 55 Together 35 years
6-5-06 Day of Reckoning
Familiarity breeds contempt.
Eva and Neo. <3
Like you, I don't have children. Only my pups. They are my kids and my babies and, for many months, were my only reason to get out of bed each day.
I hope you can cuddle with LH and your pups tonight and just remember how much joy the furkids have brought to your life.
Sending you both big hugs.
(((Neo)))
(((hugs)))
And no... not just cats. My 3 are my babies.
Divorced and remarried to XBH
First child (daughter) born February 2016
I'm happy to hear LH has been so wonderful. I'm glad you guys have each other.
I edit often to fix stuff ☺️
Profoundly grateful Every. Single. Day. that I am blessed with an H with strength, integrity, and compassion, and that he decided to try.
I'm utterly speechless. Sending hugs and good thoughts to you both.
They will not go quietly, the cats who've shared our lives. In subtle ways they let us know their spirit still survives.
Old habits still make us think we hear a meow at the door. Or step back when we drop a tasty morsel on the floor. Our feet still go around the place the food dish used to be, And, sometimes, coming home at night, we miss them terribly.
And although time may bring new friends and a new food dish to fill, That one place in our hearts belongs to them. . . and always will. ~Linda Barnes
Guns don't kill people; Affairs kill people
((OKM & LH))
Stength
(((OKM, LH, Eva, Neo)))
Eta: what beautiful pictures!
[This message edited by cinnamongurl at 11:27 PM, July 10th (Wednesday)]
