...since my little world fell apart and I'm feeling well :)......well, as well as I can.
There are still tears daily. And I check the phone log almost daily even though I've been with him almost every second since June 14th.
I think I have the all the dates in order now. I just checked them from when he says it started and it all checks out. I'm one of those that has to know it all and keep going over it until it isn't shocking anymore.
I grilled him on some phone numbers that I didn't know and he showed me who they were without even the slightest hesitation.
I have some triggers and he has been totally great when I flip out.
I think part of how well we are doing is that we have the luxury of being together all the time. If I had a job outside of our business, I know I would not be this far along.
Well, that and he did pull his head out pretty soon after Dday. I know that this site was crucial in that. He has read every article I've sent him and has read in the Healing Library also.
He gave me log ins to everything, put a GPS on his phone for me and seems to know when I have a trigger or just about to and helps me through it.
I got to hand it to him (kind of, he IS a lying cheat!!! I still know that!) but, he puts up with the crazy outbursts and has not once told me I was crazy or got defensive...this after the disclosure letter....he was a bit defensive before that.
I don't even know what this post is about, lol
I'm just glad this place is here for me to write down my random thoughts :)
Peace and strength to all the BS tonight
Him: doesn't matter anymore
D-day 14 June 2013
I'm smart, good looking and gosh darn it, people like me!