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soveryweary posted 7/13/2013 12:27 PM

I was just curious how many of you stayed in the same house until the very end.
It looks like we are headed that route.
It's actually not been that bad. I stopped cooking all his flipping vegetarian meals. I have been existing on pepsi and toast, so it's been wonderful. And it gives me a secret thrill to see him come home from a tough workout and have to scramble to have something of substance. Not buying that stuff anymore.
Since his mask slipped and I have seen the "real" him, I barely even look at him. He is ugly, ugly, ugly.
The only thing that is extremely hard is not saying out loud the thoughts that pop in to my head whenever he opens his mouth.
Hoping to ride this out...I don't want to jump the gun.
And for those of you who stayed until the end, you ok???

dbellanon posted 7/13/2013 12:53 PM

My STBX and I have been living in the same house for about two months since we agreed to divorce. She finally found a place to move, but the lease doesn't start until September 1st. Living together in this kind of situation sucks. No doubt about it. It's a little better now that there is an end in sight.

I was pretty unsure about what I should be doing/not doing for her as well. For the most part, I kept cooking, doing the laundry, washing dishes, and most of the house work while she was out apartment hunting. I was pretty resentful of it (Doing all of the "domestic support" stuff just reminded me of what she was out doing while I was keeping her home and taking care of our child), but for the most part, I've adopted the attitude that if it's no skin off my back to do it (Does it really save me any work to separate out her laundry and only do my own?), then I should just do it.

In the end, I've come to realize that I have nothing to gain by making life hard for her. She's not going to feel guilt or remorse, and I'm not going to get any sense of justice out of it. She's just going to twist it around and make it about how badly I'm treating her. I can protest that she deserves it all I want, but it won't change the way she feels, so why should I bother? Honestly, it feels like less trouble just to keep doing chores and killing bugs for her than to try to make a point by not doing it.

So I help out when it's not too inconvenient for me in the hopes that it builds up a certain amount of good will that I can use in our co-parenting later on. I'm not going to go out of my way to make her happy, but I'll keep her pacified as long as it serves me, and I'll do it for that reason and that reason only.

As far as not saying the loud thoughts that pop into your head: Good. Keep that up. I had to learn the hard way that giving her a piece of my mind was a pointless endeavor, and had the potential to hurt my position as we headed for divorce. Be "good," and take the high road, and pat yourself on the back for doing it.

And count the days until it's over. You'll make it. Good luck.

soveryweary posted 7/13/2013 14:57 PM

Wow debellanon, you are wise beyond your years.
You are setting such an awesome example for your daughter.

dbellanon posted 7/13/2013 16:05 PM

My "wisdom" was gained, as I said, the hard way. I directed plenty of bile and acid her way before I realized it was hurting me more than it was hurting her.

BetrayedinMN posted 7/14/2013 08:50 AM

I was served papers on 10/30/12 and we were in the same house and same bed until 5/8/13. D was final 4/30/13. It was difficult...so very difficult. Our kids didn't know til mid-April which made it so much worse.

If I had to do it over, I wouldn't have done it this way. It did a number on my head.

WakingFromADream posted 7/14/2013 09:09 AM

I am currently in the final stages of living in the same house as WW. I filed for D back in February.

We haven't been fighting at all. I've managed to start doing some of my own thing. WW stays away quite often. However, it has been excruciating having to be in proximity with this person that I am in the process of excising from my life. I don't want her in my space. I don't want her in my business. I don't want her in my life. For me to move forward in my healing I need to have WW gone.

Thankfully she is moving out starting tomorrow and I will be out of town with DS most of today.

THANK GOD.