So is off on a guys camping trip this week. He and I have been really busy and mismatched schedules so we havent had a lot of time together.
Here is the thing. I am so use to being lied to that I was having anxiety over SO and the guys camping trip. I was questioning is he lying to me about the trip just so he can get away and go cheat.
I know for a fact that he is camping I know where and I know with who, I know he isnt a liar. I have to keep telling myself that SO wouldn't do anything like that, its not in his blood, I know all this craziness is in my head. Simple things that my X would lie about and I always found out. With x I always got to verify the truth. With So I find myself verifying what he says, which I think is a normal reaction to being lied to all the time by other men. Not once have I caught So in a lie. He always has told me the truth.
I dont know why I think SO is a liar, maybe because I am scared that this is the first honest guy that I have dated. Becuase after a lot of thinking literally all my So's have lied about big things (cheating, making up stories etc.)
I am working on getting this insecurity under control because lets face it its turning me into a crazy suspicious gf.
Being lied to for years and years has rewired my brain into thinking that all men lie through their teeth to their girlfriends. When in actuallity not all men are full of bullshit, and SO is one of them. He's the type where he tells me he is going to do something and he does it. I trust him and my gut hasnt been giving me the knot of cheating. He know what he has and values it. He and I are on the same page as far as cheating goes he and I are both BS's. We had a long talk about that when we first were seeing eachother, he and I shared stories. Are morals are the same and I know that he would never do anything that would be going against his pride and morals. He has a lot of pride and he hates to let anyone down especially himself.