I posted last week about my worries concerning my H being unable to join me on a family vacation.
Well, I'm heading home and did just fine, thanks!
Time away from him let me calm myself and stand on my own two feet emotionally again. I went hours without thinking of the A. When I did I could be dispassionate about it.
I was in one of my favorite places in the world and started every day with a gorgeous sunrise, then a run along the lake where there were more deer than people, then a nice swim. Got to see family and go on a nice backpack into the mountains.
At one point, since I had spotty cell coverage I told my H that I seemed to be doing most of the contacting, and he immediately began texting so that I would get one when I could, emailing and calling my folk's house. Stepped up and made me feel as if he was missing me.
So it turned out to be positive. Now we are really looking forward to seeing each other again. I'm wondering if I can give the A a bit of a break for awhile. I realized that whether he screwed the OW or not, those issues were always there. It either was going to happen eventually or we would be trapped in the aftermath of the CSA forever. So now we really have a chance at something great.
At least that's how I feel today!
