Thanks for the advice. I told my mom that I know she is trying to be helpful but please no more searching. I think she really wants to uncover some deep, dark secret that will blow his chances for custody. But unfortunately, his infidelity doesn't equate to "unfit parent" in the court system.
My attorney told me yesterday, it doesn't matter if he slept with one woman or one hundred women during the past 5 years, while we were trying to rebuild our marriage. He has proven that he doesn't want to change. And, I can't blame myself for not knowing or for giving him a second chance from the first time. What matters now is that I'm on the road to a happier life.
Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel this soon after DDay #2. It was a good 2 years after DDay #1 that I started to feel okay. Maybe this time will be different because I know its over. There will be no more looking over my shoulder, checking phone calls, wondering why he is 20 minutes late coming home from work.
I don't know what the future holds but atleast I feel, I don't know... I can't say good, maybe more like relieved that I took some control back by contacting a lawyer and taking the steps necessary to protect my kids and myself.
DDay #1 Tried R
DDAY #2 Divorcing
Burn everything love then burn the ashes.