I know this is still a rollercoaster, but at almost 10 months I can say that I am feeling no pain right now.
I went away on vacation to my folk's house, unexpectedly without my H, and had a chance to get back on my feet emotionally. H was great while I was gone. He has been great since I got back. I told him this weekend that I'm starting to feel that he has truly changed for good. He was very happy to hear that and agrees completely.
I have not triggered or mentioned the A since I returned. Hours go by without my thinking of it. If I do I can quickly change the channel in my mind.
We had another lovely weekend this weekend; we are so happy together right now.
I understand that it is not over, but wanted to report that it is possible, at least for some, for the pain to take a break!