FWW said to me that she fears that i will never get over her indiscretion despite my efforts to be supportive. I just want to say that she is 100% correct! I will never get over it on certain levels but i won't let it dictate my future either. See the problem has always been the sane for the BS. Even more so than the A's is the insensitive ability to lie to your heartbeat. This is just my description of the love between two people. IMO you share the same heartbeat. It's noted inthe small things like keeping steps in time without realizing it. It's sticking your hand out and knowing your S/O hand will mneet yours without looking.
Yes, i am a bit of a romantic i guess but i never saw that as a negative until her A. I am sympathetic to the turmoil and hurt of a WS but not for the A but for the anquish that i know the truly repentant ones must also endure. However, there is a place i draw the line here. Being sympathetic to your suffering and acknowledging that that suffering was of your own making are two different things.
So let me be clear on this for all truly repentant WS's. I am sorry for the pain you brought upon yourself because in the long run you let yourself down. Speaking as a BS that is still very much in love with his S/O i hope that i can at times that you need help to soothe your troubled soul and ego over what you brought upon us. Understand that your pain is mirrored by my own.
Understand that i don't want to throw things in your face nor blame myself for your actions. I just want to acknowledge that we both are still in it at the end of the day. As a BS their is always one question that goes through ny head fron tine to time. Did i do the right thing in staying or would you be happier out there where you wandered?
The staying was my choice and i won't regret it unless i discover i stood in the way of your happiness.
Does anyone understand this?