Just a little ah ha moment yesterday. I am self employed. I can work/not work when I want. Weekends can be a busy time for me if I chose them to be. Since the A and the immediate removal of STBXH from house, I have tried to stay around home more on weekends for my son (DS16). Not that he "needs" me, but I have not wanted to work and be away for a lot just because.
Anyhoo, I do feel as though he is getting some processing done and I feel better about being out working a few hours during the weekend. This Sunday I had no work, but was really antzy. You know I want to do something, but what, these 4 walls making me crazy etc. I used to feel this way when STBXH was with us. I would work hours during the week, he would too. Weekend came and I would want to do something. Him not so much. So if he didn't do something I would just work more (great for my bank account).
It hit me yesterday. I was bored and I wanted to go do something. AND I COULD! At 4pm I loaded up my kayak and headed to the lake. Home 3 hours later. I would never have done that if STBXH was still living with us.
A little yea me!
WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
Divorced-Let my new beginning start
They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." — Daenerys Targaryen