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User Topic: 1st MC session - can it get better?
RoadtoPeace
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Default  Posted: 9:14 AM, July 23rd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have been one of the many lurkers on this site - often so grateful for the nuggets of wisdom shared by this community.

My WH and I are in our second attempt at R after several years of false R. Today was our first session with a MC and it was a disaster. WH's basic message was "I know I will never be unfaithful to you again so stop badgering me about the past." The MC was tough with him and pushed him to listen to me as I articulated what I need to heal. His defensiveness and anger was galling - you would have thought I was the one who cheated.

I am not sure where we go from here. I made the decision to attempt R based on his professed commitment to do whatever it takes to heal me and to work on himself. He has stopped drinking altogether, worked on his spiritual connection and literally spent almost every free moment with me. He also agreed to go to counseling in order to get to the WHY of his unfaithful behavior.

Has anyone moved forward after such a disastrous first session? I am hoping a lot of the very important points made by the MC sink into WH and we have a fruitful discussion tonight. Otherwise what hope I had for R will fizzle away.


[This message edited by RoadtoPeace at 9:23 AM, July 23rd (Tuesday)]


me - BS
him - WH
Married 5 1/2 years
Dday#1 - 10/2009
Dday#2 - 3/2013
Status - He wants R, I am not sure I can get on that ride again

Posts: 41 | Registered: Apr 2013
mepe27
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Default  Posted: 9:51 AM, July 23rd (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

My H and I had the worst discussions about everything for that first year especially. I think many WS, especially remorseful ones, feel guilt and shame about the A and it is common to be defensive when we feel those emotions, if he was nervous about the MC and perhaps anticpating being attacked, he may have been defensive before walking int he door. I don't think that means that he is hopeless but I think it might require some careful conversational strategies on your part to get past his barriers.

A quick example would be recognizing and agreeing with his declaration "yes I know that you feel confidant you will never have an affair again and the work you have done to show me that has helped me so much but I sometimes feel insecure when you have to work late, it reminds me of how it used to be and I might need some extra phone calls on those nights"

That may not be your issue but you get the point it was specific, you validate what he said, then you express a specific issue you have in a calm way non accusing way and give him specific way to help you.

I thought that we might have to D if my H and I couldn't have a conversation w/o him getting defensive so I had to learn to do it differently. When I changed my side of the conversation my H just followed my lead, things got so much better for us b/c I was able to get to the discussions I needed. Fight the urge to get defensive back, just remember if you react as you always do, you'll get the same response you always get.

Next time he says something defensive, close your eyes, take a deep breath, remind yourself that he is reacting from fear and confusion, he doesn't know what to do or say to make this better so rephrase whatever you said to give him a clear way path to you.
On a side note, at first i thought if I have to tell him what to do it won't help me, but i was wrong! The first time he said "ok I'll do what you need" instead of "why do you always bring this up!!??" I felt so great, so happy, so loved!! And the best part was after doing specifically what I asked a few times, he kind of got the hang of what I needed and started doing stuff on his own that was perfect.

A big part of this is they don't know how to fix the mess they made and it's sad and frustrating and confusing couple that with guilt and shame and you get defensiveness and lashing out.

Help them help you.


Me BW-39
H WH-41
Married for 10 years
Two boys 6yrs, 3yrs
D-Day 12/1/07
Got whole painful truth 2/2/08
5/15/2008 EA with co-worker, I left
6/1/08 - We are committing to R
"One falsehood destroys a thousand truths"

Posts: 2303 | Registered: Feb 2008 | From: Georgia
RoadtoPeace
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Member # 39141
Default  Posted: 2:04 AM, July 24th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you Mepe27! Your post was incredibly helpful. You echoed a lot of what the MC suggested to me - find a way to clearly articulate what you need in a way that is digestible for WH. He was very nervous about the whole MC process.

When I came home from work last night, he had dinner ready and the table set. I was not in the best of moods so was quiet for most of the dinner. He brought up MC session and said he felt ganged up on. Our conversation reverted back to the same positions - he complaining that i am not giving him enough appreciation for the work he has put in and me frustrated that he wasn't interested in talking about "it" or patient enough to listen to what i need.

He was trying to keep the mood light for the rest of the evening but I was sad and disappointed so went to bed way earlier than normal.

I am willing to be patient and "help him help me" but I also need WH to step it up and show me that he can be supportive and patient. Otherwise I will feel like he is wanting to rug sweep and minimize.

[This message edited by RoadtoPeace at 2:07 AM, July 24th (Wednesday)]


me - BS
him - WH
Married 5 1/2 years
Dday#1 - 10/2009
Dday#2 - 3/2013
Status - He wants R, I am not sure I can get on that ride again

Posts: 41 | Registered: Apr 2013
Topic Posts: 3

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