Hello and welcome to SI.
Head over to the Healing Library there on your left when you have a chance and read. Read everything.
I have a couple of suggestions and you might not like them but here goes:
1, Stop minimizing.
2, Stop rushing this.
3, Write out a timeline with every detail you can remember. The sooner the better.
4, Stop lying.
5, Please for the love of Pete do not try and bring a baby into this mess right now! There's too much stress and anxiety and uncertainties happening. You have 4 kids now, right? Spend time with them and cherish them. A baby at this stage is just bad news and it will not help the situation. I know you don't want to hear that and I'm sorry if I offend or anger but it's JMHO and you can take it or leave it.
[This message edited by stilllovinghim at 1:09 AM, July 24th (Wednesday)]