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hpv50 (original poster member #39703) posted at 4:57 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
My husband has asked to take a poly, so I've set it up for Friday.
Briefly: he's admitted to "pursuing opportunities" (attempted to ask women to coffees/lunches whom he is interested in) over the last three years, but says he only actually went to two lunches with two separate women; he admitted to sexually fantasizing about, and then subsequently engaging in the beginnings of an EA with a woman at work, when I got diagnosed with hpv and saw the emails, and it (hopefully) abruptly halted. It was definitely ramping up and heading toward lunch dates when the almighty intervened.
I found an older string of emails for a second pseudo-EA (when i was out of the country), and it was very clear he was asking her out, but she appears to turn him down. He also admits to flirting with others, but keeps saying he can't remember anything about them - basically, he's only really admitting what I've found, and not much more. Granted, I've been so pissed off, and he's so passive aggressive and conflict avoidant that I've probably made it harder for him to admit things. But part of the reason I'm peeved is that he's very defensive, blames me for his behavior, and while he shows some flashes of regret, is mainly not remorseful. He also gaslighted me for 6 weeks before I found the emails.
But he swears he was never physical in ANY WAY with anyone.
Here is where I would love some help: I get three poly questions, what should I ask? One will be whether he's had any physical contact with anyone. But what about the other two? What he's describing is so vague and different from other situations that I'm confused.
Maybe it would also be helpful to know how long this has gone on - he says 3 years, but we've been married for 19.
Any ideas?
Me: BS - 50; Him: WH - 53, covert NPD/ BPD
married 19 years, 3 kids
DD1 4/22/13 (hpv diagnosis)
DD2 5/9/13
Status: relocated my happy; hanging in there for now
Lalagirl ( member #14576) posted at 5:17 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
With the physical contact question - that has to be specifc - "Have you ever had ANY type of intimate contact with another person other than your spouse - this includes kissing, hugging, petting, oral sex and intercourse." It's one question, but just asking if he's been physical is rather vague. JMHO.
Others will come along with suggestions too...
Hugs and good luck...
2025: Me-59 FWH-61 Married 41 years grown daughters- 41 & 37. 1 GS,11yo GD & 9yo GD (DD40); Five grands ages 15 to 8. D-day #1-1/06; D-day #2-3/07 Reconciled! Construction Complete. Astra inclinant, sed non obligant
brokensmile322 ( member #35758) posted at 5:22 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Sadly, you can't ask any questions dealing with feelings.
They have to be specific.
One question that seems to come up alot is
"Does HPV50 know everything there is to know about your relationship with "XYZ"?
I am sure there are more out there. Good luck and let us know how it goes.
Me BS 42 Him WS 44
OW Coworker DDay April 7, 2012
EA on a slippery slope...
When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Viktor Frankl
"When you are happy, you can forgive a great deal."
confused615 ( member #30826) posted at 5:23 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
"Have you told your wife everything about your inappropriate contact with others?"
"Have you have any intimate contact with any woman other than your wife since you married?"
"Other than the EA's you have admitted to,are there any others?"
BS(me)44
FWH 48
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
ArableSands ( member #39830) posted at 5:38 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
I've mentioned this before, but I think it was ignored. POLYGRAPHS ARE NOT RELIABLE INDICATORS OF TRUTH.
Seriously. Go read the research. There's a reason why polygraph results are not admissable in court.
doesitgetbetter ( member #18429) posted at 5:48 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
POLYGRAPHS ARE NOT RELIABLE INDICATORS OF TRUTH
Neither are liars and cheaters, at least the poly is MORE reliable then they are.
I would ask "have you had any sexual contact with anyone other than your wife". If you ask about "intimate contact", he could get a positive if he's kissed his mother since you married him. But if you ask about sexual contact, well, hopefully he hasn't done that to his mother since you met. (OK, I know, gross, but that was kinda funny too)
Another for me would be "are there any secret emails, cell phones, websites, etc. that HPV doesn't know about that you use to have contact or solicit contact with anyone else?"
DDay - Dec '07
Me - BS
Him - WS
Us - working on R - again
May 18, 2010 - I forgave him fully!
D-day 2 July 4, 2015, turns out he is a SAWH, status, working harder than before
May 22, 2019 -slip/relapse. He forgot he has to work forever
heartache101 ( member #26465) posted at 6:12 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
HPV is a sexually transmitted disease. Did you have sex with anyone else in the last 7 years other then your husband???
If not he gave this to you.
That is what my physician told me when I had my diagnosis of HPV which went into squamous cancerous cells which then I had a complete hyster.. He is lying..Sorry...
My spouses affair could of killed me had I not stayed on top of my PAPs and annual check ups.. Please make sure you are checked every 6 months from here on out..
There are degrees to which you let people back into your life and degrees to which you let them back into your heart-which, of course, are not the same thing
ArableSands ( member #39830) posted at 7:39 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Neither are liars and cheaters, at least the poly is MORE reliable then they are.
Actually, doesitgetbetter, they AREN'T more reliable. They are as fickle as the polygraph examiner -- it is the examiner's interpretations that determine truth from lie, not an objective measure of any sort.
Polygraphs are notorious for being easy to fool, and also for false positives.
I don't want to take away a tool that so many here clearly rely upon for their peace of mind, but the evidence is overwhelming. Polygraphs DO NOT OFFER A RELIABLE MEANS OF DETERMINING TRUTH.
confused615 ( member #30826) posted at 7:54 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
There are a few SI members who work in this area..a sociopath can easily pass a lie detector..but for the average person a polygraph is much hard to deceive. Impossible? No.
AS,I understand you believe your research. And I respect that you have a different opinion. I base my polygraph suggestions on the SI members who have posted here and given their personal experience both giving a polygraph and working with those who do administer these tests.
hpv,the fact that he said he would take it is positive. However,follow through. Many WS's have said they'd take the test,then they give a "parking lot confession" before going inside to take the test. Even if you get that,go through with it. A lot of SI members have had their WS take a poly..and they didn't pass..and then WS admitted to the rest.
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BS(me)44
FWH 48
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
hpv50 (original poster member #39703) posted at 8:40 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Thanks for the suggestions, guys. I actually agree that polygraph tests are not completely reliable. BUT: my husband really wants to take it, it's better than nothing, and I spent a ton of time researching who to choose - and I found someone good (licensed, sits on the state board, does this full time, etc), so what the heck.
Also, yes, hpv is sexually transmitted, but for about 2% of the cases with my profile, it comes out of long term remission. I was also recently diagnosed with hypothyroidism (an autoimmune disorder of sorts), which may have triggered the hpv. Am I deluded enough to believe that his EA/dating attempts weren't a PA? Heck, no. But given that I've done everything I can to find more evidence (and failed), a poly test seems like better than nothing.
Me: BS - 50; Him: WH - 53, covert NPD/ BPD
married 19 years, 3 kids
DD1 4/22/13 (hpv diagnosis)
DD2 5/9/13
Status: relocated my happy; hanging in there for now
AnotherTry ( member #19498) posted at 8:53 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
I think you have to do what YOU have to. There are many types of advice/opinions you can gather but in the end, it's what YOU believe and choose to live with or not. I'm not discounting anyone's opinion here because we all speak from experience. I just know at the close of a day, it's all up to me, good or bad. Prayers you find peace. Notice I don't say you find answers because sometimes those NEVER come, I just hope you can find peace.
BS 41
FWH 40 (4reasonsunknown)
M 15 yrs, together 18
D-day 05/08/08
Finished almost a year of MC and WE are healed!! WE survived infidelity only through God's love and grace!!
3 wonderful girls, 14, 13, 8
With God ALL things are possible
solus sto ( member #30989) posted at 9:02 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Arable Sands, they are imperfect, but they're the only tool we have.
They are FAR more reliable than liars and cheaters.
Can some people beat them? Sure. People like my husband, who is personality-disordered and are devoid of conscience, sure.
False positives are rarer.
The key is finding a well-qualified polygrapher.
And---yes--it's important to recognize that it is just a TOOL.
When you live with a stonewalling liar, sometimes the most imperfect tool is remarkably effective.
If nothing else, they tend to spur parking lot confessions. Are these typically complete revelations? Not usually. But for some of us, ANY information is better than the NONE we otherwise have.
Knowing my husband's disorder, I wouldn't bother with a polygraph. But most people are not conscience-free. And for those people, many of us (having duly DONE the research you routinely insist would convince us otherwise) have concluded that, indeed, polygraphy IS a viable option.
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BS-me, 62; X-irrelevant; we’re D & NC. "So much for the past and present. The future is called 'perhaps,' which is the only possible thing to call the future. And the important thing is not to let that scare you." Tennessee Williams
hotcoffee ( member #39700) posted at 9:22 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Lalagrirl suggested: "Have you ever had ANY type of intimate contact with another person other than your spouse - this includes kissing, hugging, petting, oral sex and intercourse."
Maybe it's because I live in Europe, but this question seems too general. I have kissed (on the cheeks) and hugged a lot of people. It is rude not to. It has never been inappropriate but a question worded that way would trip me up. That is, I have done nothing wrong but what is the correct answer to that question? It has to be yes or no right?
At the same time, I like the question about things not yet revealed.
doesitgetbetter ( member #18429) posted at 11:55 PM on Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
Actually, doesitgetbetter, they AREN'T more reliable
Still, have to disagree. Reason? There is a 100% chance that my lying cheating spouse is lying, and at least a better chance than 0 that the poly is not.
DDay - Dec '07
Me - BS
Him - WS
Us - working on R - again
May 18, 2010 - I forgave him fully!
D-day 2 July 4, 2015, turns out he is a SAWH, status, working harder than before
May 22, 2019 -slip/relapse. He forgot he has to work forever
k9lover1 ( member #8531) posted at 6:58 PM on Friday, July 26th, 2013
D-Day was 10/9/05
He promised NC. He lied. After 4 chances, I kicked him out 1/05/06.
Since then I have survived cancer surgery and a heart attack.
Now he's sorry, but it's too late. He died an alcoholic on 9/5/17.
heartache101 ( member #26465) posted at 7:15 PM on Friday, July 26th, 2013
HPV50 how did it go???
Hoping for the best for you!
There are degrees to which you let people back into your life and degrees to which you let them back into your heart-which, of course, are not the same thing
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