My last post was in September 2012 when I just found out my WH was having a 6 month affair with a girl 23 years old. Since then I have I found out that she was just the latest in a long string of girl friends dating back 15 years. His first was when we first started marriage counseling 15 years ago. I decided to separate and I moved out (he wouldnt). Since then we have been trying to be civil. I received a lot of nasty texts from him so I went NC until he could be civil. He still wants me back. He is relentless and I was wavering.....until yesterday when my youngest son said Dad had a friend over last night....Natalie. I recognized the name...24 year old waitress. My WH said nothing happened. All the old feelings came flooding back. I felt back at ground zero, but it didnt last long. I went to pick up my son from his dads house today. Computer was left open and on in the office.....shouldnt have looked....it was an email from some exotic tantric massage place confirming an appointment
So then I had a peek at his contacts...I know...it was wrong....found some scary stuff....nude pictures w phone numbers. Hookers and young! Seriously I need to have my head examined! Clearly he is a deviant! And I'm an idiot! Thank God I havent been intimate w him since Aug 2012!! Its time for me to re establish firm bounderies. Any body else experience this type of behavior? I think I am dealing with a personality disorder....narcassism maybe. Yikes!