This weekend was our annual weekend away with friends. It is 19 families, with a total of 37 kids. The kids have a blast, we stay in cabins, have a washer toss tournament, scavenger hunt for the kids, campfires, boating, swimming,..etc.
This is the first year I have gone since I have separated from my ex. I brought the new BF. Everyone was very pleasant and accepting but something was wrong. It had changed.
I no longer felt like part of the group. I am not much of a drinker, so I don't stay up late and get loaded (especially not with a child around). It is hard to put my finger on it, but it is like my friends are still my friends but I have some how changed.
I don't get invited to all their events anymore, I am no longer one of the regulars. I felt that start to fall apart when were separating.
It is sad, DS had a blast, but I couldnt' wait for it to get over. I wasn't comfortable. It was so strange.
It is like my life has completely changed in every aspect. I am not unhappy but I feel so out of place. It left me disjointed or something, I am a little sad about the loss.
[This message edited by ninebark at 10:55 AM, July 29th (Monday)]