Today was the final day of hell week for us - my surgery (read my profile for why that relates to his affair). We went to the cabin I was in when he met and had sex with OW the first time in 2010 as well as when he took her on a "date" the last time he was with her last year. He took me to surgery (original plan was my BFF since suregry is so triggery for me).
It was a rough two weeks to say the least. BUT - we did it! He handled it all pretty well all things considered. He was there for me. Glad it's over! Surgery went way better than expected and overall the last two weeks were very much hell but not as bad as the dreams I had about what it would be like.
I am very glad I found the courage to let WH help and support me through this. I am very glad WH listened to my needs. I am very glad I have SI so I knew the returning of so many of my stress symptoms came back, are "normal". Not sure how I'd do this without SI honestly.
We are planning Retrouvaille hopefully this weekend.
For today - I have hope. When I think about the "other side" today, it's not just me saying yeah people say there is another side - I kinda actually believe that.
Thanks for all the support and to all the people who have shared their experiences their pain. Even not directed at me - it has been a lifesaver!
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
