I can't believe I'm still here. Still logging into my account after all this time, which I know might not really be that long, but feels like a lifetime.
The short and sweet version: We are separated - have been for over a year. I have been to an attorney just because I needed to feel a sense of control. I have not filed. He has not filed. Neither of us want a divorce.
We are both stuck. There are days I still sob at the loss of our marriage and what we once were. Other days I picture us working through this mess and being stronger than before. And some days (like today), I don't know if I will ever get past the A. I am definitely stronger today than I was on D-Day, but I'm different. We are different. We will never go back to the way things were. Who knows...maybe that's a good thing?
I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want right now.
I guess I just want to know that I'm not the only one who is so confused...