Which is okay. It'd be nice to have my six-pack back again, even if it's not quite as cut. A soft six-pack, so to speak.
Through thick and thin we will survive but he gets only one shot at it!
I'm not what I ought to be. I'm not what I want to be. I'm not what I hope to be. But thank God, I'm not what I used to be.
My life before was being his wife. I took pride in doing everything I could for him. His A was a major slap in the face, all that shit was for nothing. So I pretty much stopped lol.
[This message edited by Lostinthismess at 1:36 PM, August 1st (Thursday)]
That lasted about a month.
I'm kinda vain so as soon as I had enough energy I returned to taking care of my physical appearance.
I had always spent more money on my WW when it came to clothes, so I bought myself a new suit, some new shirts and some accessories that I had been wanting to buy for a long time and didn't feel guilty for spending the money.
I seriously lived for him
I never did this ^^^ ~ I seriously lived for my children though
Change anything? Not a thing. I am fine with who I am, I just hate who my WH became....he needed to do ALL the changing, not me.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
[This message edited by DoneWithLove at 5:44 PM, July 31st (Wednesday)]
FYI - I also had a photographer friend do a "taking back my sexuality" photo shoot for me. I used lots of props in the shoot that represented the A, had a makeup artist do me up sexy, and they came out FIERCE! It's my own photographic journal of this journey. I highly recommend it! You will look at them and go, WOW - that's ME!? I'm HOT! It's sort of like revenge without having to cause any more damage.
Was wearing this awful huge knee brace for 2 years, hated it, but the pain was awful.
couldn't walk around the block. That is why I gained weight.
The anger and pain after dday was so intense I could not eat or sleep. I got it out by using the elliptical. The physical pain was easier to take than the mental.
I worked out well though, no brace, yesterday I ran!!!
So happy about this, I feel like I have my body back, my physical strength.
Down to a size 7, same as high school.
Lots of new clothes, I could fit and extra person in the old.
I would now like to be known as Can!
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
I attempted R, he was a lie
I have now regained my sanity and now doing things for me. I have purchased nice age appropriate clothes, no boob job thank you, I love my small ones. Back to sweats because they are comfy. And going for the natural look with min makeup. I love the new me. Still keeping my hair though, it's cool.
Another DDay I lost a bunch of weight.
This past Dday, I gained a BUNCH of weight.
I once coloured my hair red, but I think that was more so due to the death of my mom.. though the DDay after she passed I dyed it BRIGHT RED, because I knew he'd hate it
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