I will ride this out, get stronger and when I am ready, when I know in my heart the time is right, I will know what to do.
I have to keep "good thoughts" in my mind, think less of HIM, of what he did and think more of my life, my future.
Thanks to everyone with their honest, experienced opinions. How I wish there weren't so many of us here with broken hearts and wasted time, wasted life.
Around 4 o'clock in the afternoon (next day) on my way out, he asked me where I was going, and then wanted to clarify my text. I told him then that I was not moving, and that he would have to if that is what he wanted to do. That was the extend of our conversation that day. Today, he said good morning, I replied. He asked how I was, and that is that for today. Oh ya, for the pat 2 days he was sleeping in the spare bedroom, tonight he is sleeping in his bed (our bed). He is sleeping now. He is scared shitless that I tell him it is over. I have been too forgiving, too loving, just too much of everything too quick. It is suddenly clicking in today.
Dday - 2/19/13 - found the emails
He promised me Heaven then put me thru hell
Is he NC with OW?
I don't have much advice and I am no expert at all of this yet, but I do need to say this, don't tell him you're going to do something unless you are absolutely going to do it.
Hugs to you. I hope you have many more wonderful days!