I only have one employee and he has been working for me for a little while now. I have had this sneaky suspicion that he self harms or has in the past. Just based on some things he's said and some of the things he's been through in life.
I'm pretty sure he's noticed my scars on my arms and hasn't said anything. They are noticeable if you are looking for them but not to the casual observer.
So I've looked at his arms in the past and hadn't seen anything but today he had his left sleeve rolled up for a little bit and I saw several scars on his upper arm that are clearly self harm cuts. They weren't recent so I don't know if he is currently doing it.
I know this sounds bad but at first I was really happy. I guess because I didn't feel so alone. I've never met someone IRL that self harms so that is a very isolating feeling.
I guess now I don't know how I feel about it. I feel really bad for him. I'm not sure if I feel less concerned about him seeing my scars now or not. I know I can't fool him and tell him it's not self-inflicted. But at the same time I don't think he will come down on me for it or ask me a lot of questions about it.
Right now he probably thinks it's something I did in the past and I don't do it anymore. I wore a long sleeve shirt the first week he worked which was the last time I cut. But I cut again last night so now he will probably know that I cut and that I'm trying to hide it. Just to say, I'm a landscaper so a long sleeve shirt is not the normal work attire when it is hot out.