"I'm still standing better than I ever did. Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid" Elton John
I have also experienced some "Silver Linings", I just don't feel ready to acknowledge that his "choice" has anything good associated with it. I might in time but right now, I just don't want to.
I have lost 50 pounds and regained the use of my knee.
I can run, garden, feel like myself again, physically anyways.
I have finally understood that I deserve respect, kindness, that I have value. Sad that I never new before that there was more to life than survival, but now I know and have a chance to find my happy. This is the biggest change of all, a work in progress.
I am grateful for the changes but hate the cause.
Hopefully with more time and respect and kindness from h I will not still feel so conflicted about it all.
I would now like to be known as Can!
dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
I attempted R, he was a lie