I've tried to be as NC as possible considering the 3 boys are ready to start school/sports/etc.
Today he texted me a few things and I finally asked him to stop because it was making me panicky. He apologized and said he would stop.
Then he came to drop off some sports equipment and talked to me for a few minutes.
He said he just wanted to tell me where he was...he's going to totally break off all contact, friendship etc with OW. He's actively working on himself, he's going to schedule more IC.
He misses me, loves me, wants me, doesn't want to lose me.
The anguish was evident and he seemed like he was about to have a break down. He was crying, borderline sobbing.
I just tried to nod a few times. I told him I didn't know what to say, and that I do still love him, and that was really all I could give him when he asked for a sliver of hope.
I know, NC=no new hurts. It's only been a week since I filed. I know he has put some changes into action but it's a long road to convincing me that he is who I should be with for the rest of my life, given what he has put me through.
I am still trying to concentrate on myself. I bought a crockpot today and went grocery shopping and am trying to cook more for the boys, which is a big deal.
I am still getting used to my ADs and started back at work, and it's about to get real busy with the boy's school and my college courses.
I am a little stressed about all of that. And I don't need to worry about him and what/how he's doing right now.
Anyway, that's my update for now.
It seems today that me filing for D may have truly hit him.
