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LostandGuilty posted 8/3/2013 00:06 AM

I am laying in bed listening to my dog snore a little. Tonight is my last night ever sleeping next to him. I have to put him to sleep in the morning. For the past month, he has been suffering from anemia. The vets do not know what is causing it, but it has cost $1,200 to keep him alive this past month. He has had two blood transfusions and requires seven pills a day. The steroids that he has been given have made him diabetic. He now receives two insulin shots a day. None of it has worked, as he is still not producing his own red blood cells. His body is giving out on him.

Two weeks after I found out about the A, I moved out. My XWW showed no regret and never looked back. I had no bedroom furniture for the first three months, so me and my Jack Russell slept on my only couch every night. Him on top of me.

When I would come home from work, he would be there to greet me everyday. When I would sit up at night crying because I missed my wife and my kids, he would lick me. He was worried about me. He let me lean on him, cry, and complain. He listened to every word.

I am going to miss him. My kids are going to miss him. He is such an amazing family member. I feel guilty, but I can not do any more for him.

heartbroken_kk posted 8/3/2013 00:13 AM

(((((LostandGuilty)))))
(((((BestFriend)))))

it is one of the greatest kindnesses you can do for your friend, to let him go gently.

Peace to you both

icantakeit posted 8/3/2013 00:38 AM

Lostandguilty,
Do not feel guilty, you have done all you can.
I just went through the same thing July 15th. She was my comfort, always knew when I was feeling down. She would nuzzle me try cheer me. She was the only one I talked with about my WH. It is soooo hard without her, but it had to be done. Remember the happy times and know you are doing what is best for him.. Ever heard of Rainbow Bridge?? check it out it is comforting...Remember he knows how much you love him and will wait until you meet again!! It is so hard to lose a special companion. Condolences to you and your children.

[This message edited by icantakeit at 12:42 AM, August 3rd (Saturday)]

authenticnow posted 8/3/2013 08:45 AM

That is one of the toughest and most selfless things we can do as pet owners.

I'm sorry for the loss of your beloved friend.

lieshurt posted 8/3/2013 10:19 AM

I'm very sorry. I know how difficult it can be, but this is truly a loving thing you are doing for your best friend.

((((hugs))))

million pieces posted 8/3/2013 10:54 AM

I've just gone through this twice in the past 4 months. First time I waited until it was too late and I felt so bad. The next time I almost feel like I did it too early because I was just sooooo afraid of her suffering when I wasn't around like her sister did. They were both at least 15yrs a HUGE part of my life. Like yours, they helped me through all the craziness and gave me a reason to function when my kids were not with me. They kept me going. Now I come home for the first time in 15 yrs to a empty house. Actually, the first time ever.

Dog Heaven was a wonderfully sweet book that I read w both of my kids. And I still cry.

SoVerySadNow posted 8/3/2013 11:04 AM

Oh this is heartbreaking. Hug your friend close.
I'm sorry.

movingforward777 posted 8/3/2013 11:12 AM

I am so sorry that you have to go through this...but as others have said part of being a good pet owner is knowing when it is time to let them go peacefully and not suffer any more.....
Maybe in time you will be ready to have another dog....in the meantime remember all the good times and do what is right for your dog....he's crossing the "rainbow bridge" to run and play with other dogs, free of pain and suffering.....HUGS

jo2love posted 8/3/2013 11:59 AM

(((Lost & Doggie)))

I am so sorry.

Mommato4 posted 8/3/2013 12:12 PM

((((Lost))))

I'm so sorry for the loss of your fur baby. I had a Jack too. They are wonderful dogs.

I went through something similar with mine last year and we couldn't pinpoint what it was for 8 months. When we finally figured it out, I learned it was a fatal disease. I had to make the hard decision. He was just shy of 6 years old and he was the dog I went through the divorce mess with. I understand that pain.

I had him cremated and he sits on my mantle with his ceramic paw print of that day so he's here with me always.

[This message edited by Mommato4 at 12:13 PM, August 3rd (Saturday)]

DeadMumWalking posted 8/3/2013 12:14 PM

I'm so sorry for you and your furbaby

((((Lost & kids & Best Friend))))

Williesmom posted 8/3/2013 12:16 PM

I'm so sorry. ((Lost and pup))

jrc1963 posted 8/3/2013 12:36 PM

I am so sorry for the loss of your best buddy...

Please take comfort in the fact that you did everything you could for him and are doing what is best for him now.

(((Lost)))

persevere posted 8/3/2013 15:08 PM

I'm so sorry LandG But you've done all you can do, and not letting your best friend suffer is the right choice. ((LandG))

purplejacket4 posted 8/3/2013 15:24 PM

So very sorry. Hugs!

knightsbff posted 8/3/2013 16:13 PM

I'm so sorry LandG.

Prayers and hugs.

Want2help posted 8/3/2013 18:04 PM

(((((LostandGuilty)))))
(((((BestFriend)))))

I am so, so sorry.

notmeanymore posted 8/3/2013 20:19 PM

((Lost & His Best Friend))

You shouldn't feel guilty, but I know it's easier said than done.

Sad in AZ posted 8/4/2013 07:04 AM

What you are doing is an act of love, and he knows that you love him. (((((LostandGuilty)))))

sullymeishadomi posted 8/4/2013 19:20 PM

((Lost)). Youre truly blessed to have such a good friend. ((Doggie))