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FirstLoveGone posted 8/4/2013 15:01 PM

. . . I picked up and dropped off DD at XH's house that he shares with his new family (wifetress, her DD, and their new DD).

This is the first time since Dday that I have gone to his home. It was time. I am healed enough to do this. Even DD said she was "impressed" and she's only 7 yrs old!

I was fine through the exchange. I cooed at the their 1 year old who was standing with XH at the door. I made small talk with his step DD who is 5 yrs old. I did not see wifetress, but heard her on the phone. I did not go into the house - I stood on the porch the whole time.

XH made a move for the baby that he did with our DD whe she was that young. Took me back to when I thought we were happy. My knees almost gave way right then.

After drop off I teared up a little on my way home in the car. The fact that I no longer know the man I married and the father of my child came over me. The magnitude of what DD and I have been through came over me.

Those thoughts stayed for a bit. Then I rolled down the car windows, turned up the radio, and drove home in the warm sunshine with the knowledge that I am a good mother, was a good wife, and came through the other side with integrity, strength, and honor.

[This message edited by FirstLoveGone at 3:02 PM, August 4th (Sunday)]

gma56 posted 8/4/2013 15:28 PM

It feels so damn good when you truely realize you ARE healing.

Then I rolled down the car windows, turned up the radio, and drove home in the warm sunshine with the knowledge that I am a good mother, was a good wife, and came through the other side with integrity, strength, and honor.


And you have a life to continue living as that good woman. That is one the most important things that I didn't lose in my self after being with a NPD for almost 30 yrs. I'm still a good woman and not a bitter bitch after all the betrayl.

Hugs and enjoy the day.
Gma

laney57 posted 8/4/2013 15:55 PM

I am so proud of you! You are a true survivor. Have a great day!

dmari posted 8/4/2013 16:10 PM


Yay! I'm so proud of you and I am thankful that you shared! You handled yourself with self-respect, integrity and dignity. Now go and enjoy your day!

caregiver9000 posted 8/4/2013 16:38 PM

You did it!!!

Good for you.

Ashland13 posted 8/4/2013 20:28 PM

You are at a point I hope to get to ...someday. Bravo.

918Mama posted 8/4/2013 21:30 PM

You are amazing!! I'm really impressed too!!

Your daughter has two younger siblings now. And you're making it ok for her to feel comfortable in that role. As someone who grew up in that exact situation but with a very bitter and angry mother, I can't begin to explain what a gift you are giving your daughter.

You are truly an inspiration!!!!

Griefstricken25 posted 8/4/2013 21:39 PM

(((FirstLoveGone)))

You are an incredible woman, and an amazing mother.

nowiknow23 posted 8/4/2013 21:42 PM

(((FirstLoveGone)))

GabyBaby posted 8/4/2013 21:46 PM

Then I rolled down the car windows, turned up the radio, and drove home in the warm sunshine with the knowledge that I am a good mother, was a good wife, and came through the other side with integrity, strength, and honor.
Hell yeah!!!! You kicked arse. Good for you!

FirstLoveGone posted 8/4/2013 22:39 PM

Aww, thanks ladies, your responses are gonna make me cry!

I thought I would never get to this day. Didn't think I had it in me. But I did this not only for DD, but also for me. I wanted to show FT that he did not take my spirit!

[This message edited by FirstLoveGone at 10:44 PM, August 4th (Sunday)]

mandan66 posted 8/4/2013 23:08 PM

wow---I'm not one of the ladies, but I am really impressed also. I've come along way since the nightmare began last Fall, but it is sure hard to imagine getting to the point where you are at.
Great for you!

HurtsButImOK posted 8/5/2013 03:10 AM

what an inspirational post! You rock FirstLoveGone!!

Thank you for sharing.

Coraline posted 8/5/2013 03:48 AM

Hurray for you! :)

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