"Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"
My mom missing my daughter's birthday triggered me. Triggered me in the way I used to feel when I wanted to go off on XWH during the affair....
I want to email her and sperm donor and sperm donor's mother and yell at all of them and tell them what POS they are and say "HOW DARE THEY" brush off my baby girl's big 1st day and tell them how much they will regret not being a part of her life and just go off!
But, I digress... and I say nothing and I keep up with NC.
Because I know none of the above will do any good.....because I know that it won't make any difference what I say to them.... because I know they are all blame-shifters and will have their own petty justifications for being royal heartless douchebags!!!
I heard from sperm donor's ex-wife (mother of piper's half brother and sister who ALL came to her birthday Saturday) that sperm donor's mother has pancreatic cancer now. Part of me wants to reach out to her but I don't because I know that she will just respond in a combative and ugly hateful way..... like she did when my sister tried to get her to hold Piper a couple of months ago and she growled out a big resonating NO!
I hate that she is possibly dying.... and the sympathetic HUMAN part of me wants to be nice to her..... but the motherly protective side of me thinks its best to just leave her be. She hates my child and I.... and maybe the best thing I can do for her is to continue to be non-existent in her life....
ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12