I'm afraid to be happy because it feels like it's too soon to be happy - if I don't remind him once a day how desperately I hurt inside, he might think what he did was not so bad.
I know he's devastated himself, I know he will never forget, so I know that's not the truth. But it's just a fear. Normal?
Hang on - the good times get more frequent and last longer.
I'm glad to hear it gets better.
My heart drops too if he says I need to talk to you. I feel like I'm about to cry and can't stop it.
I guess it comes with time and it's part of the after effects.
I hate that you and others feel this way but it brings me a tiny bit of comfort that I'm not the only one.
I need to remind myself that her motivation to heal truly comes for her own hurt not mine. The A had nothing to do with me and neither does her healing process.
I used to be the eternal optimist about everything... post A's, I can see the dark side of a bright, sparkly, rainbow-farting unicorn galloping straight at me . I have a hard time allowing myself to live "in the moment" and usually spend far too much time obsessing about the "what-if".
Totally normal and SUPER annoying!