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brkn_heartd (original poster member #30396) posted at 1:49 AM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
First off, we are starting A season...so I am sure that it part of it. I have been sick I am sure that is part of it. I am finishing my doctorate degree and defend in 1 week and I am sure that it part of it. However, I cannot get over an overwhelming feeling of sadness.
I stayed at home from work today due to being sick...I never do that...and somehow feel that he is bothered by that. Maybe he is not...but then of course my mind is worried...did I interrupt something for him...you know the mental games your mind will play. He has given me no indication in several years anything is up. I have just been really goosey the last few days.
I hope it gets better.
Me-57 BS
Him 65-WS
Married 38 yrs, together 40
Affair Aug-Dec 09
official D-12/14/09
broke NC 1/31/10
second D 3/19/10
AFrayedKnot ( member #36622) posted at 2:13 AM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
(((Brkn_heartd)))
You have a lot on your plate right now. I am sure it all is playing a part. Talk to your H. Take care of yourself. Take it slow. Try and find a few stress free moments for yourself. Good luck with your defense. 
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
LA44 ( member #38384) posted at 2:16 AM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
((brkn_heartd)) the feeling sad days suck don't they? I hope tomorrow finds you feeling a little better. It will get better.
Best of luck next week!
LA
Me: 44
He: 47 WH
Married: 15 years
D Day: December 2012
Affair: Fall 2009 - Dec. 2011
R is not linear
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 2:19 AM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
((brkn_heartd))
I'm so sorry for the sadness. It still happens during A season for me too. Try to see if you can feel the difference between triggers and if he's actually reacting to something. When I take a breath I can sometimes tell the difference right away.
Sending hugs.
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
Flatlined123 ( member #35862) posted at 2:41 AM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
((((brkn_heartd)))))
Hang in there. The days like these suck royally!
Talk to your H. If you have to, tell him what you need him to do to help you feel better.
Stay strong.
Me: BS H: WS4 kids DD #1 7-11-08DD#2 8-21-09 same OW, A never ended.Started R in 12-09"If what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, I should be able to bench press a Buick."
brkn_heartd (original poster member #30396) posted at 3:56 PM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
Thank you all for your support. I had gotten so nervous last night I could have jumped out of my skin. I did speak to him, he reassured me. I am still home today and feeling a little better. Not as sad as I was last night.
Me-57 BS
Him 65-WS
Married 38 yrs, together 40
Affair Aug-Dec 09
official D-12/14/09
broke NC 1/31/10
second D 3/19/10
OptimisticWife ( member #36587) posted at 4:04 PM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
Hope you're feeling better soon (((brkn_heartd)))
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 10:04 PM on Tuesday, August 6th, 2013
Hooray for upswings! I'm really glad your talk went well. I hope you have a good day.
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
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