Me: Awesome - 35.... ummm, not anymore
I am not in R but this was the most stupid thing that I would do in the very recent past.
Have 1 or 3 too many drinks, cry, break NC, acquire new hurts and confirm that 'yep, he is still an unremorseful ahole' and stop drinking.
Lather, rinse, repeat until about a month ago.
So sorry you are going through this.
To try and avoid doing things that hurt me when I am triggering or at a low point I now:
* acknowledge the pain
* remind myself of positives that have come about
* self sooth/treat myself to something that is good for me
* keep reminding myself that this too shall pass
* forgive myself if I do end up doing something that causes or adds to the pain
I have found that recently the lows have become shallower and more manageable.
"I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel". –Maya Angelou