I want to send this to the BS but I know I want to send it to help me feel better so I'll leave well enough alone. I just need to get this off my chest.
BW--with all remorse, I'm sorry. My actions were those of a fool. I have hurt the people closest to me. Their pain has cut me to the core. Especially that of my dear husband and children. I work every day on improving myself to show my contrition to them and to God. Their pain weighs heavy on my heart every day. There are others whose pain also haunts me. That of you and your children. I am truly sorry for the pain I have caused your family. The only way I can think of showing this is by remaining permanently out of your life as well as your children's. I pray you find peace in your life despite my contributions to your pain and heartache. I have seen first hand how devastating my actions were. I've committed my life to fixing the character flaws that allowed me to cause such deep pain to others. I pray that Christ can fix what I have ruined. May you abide in his grace and love.
My sincere apologies--CS