I have had so many ddays...the last one Feb 8 2013.
In the beginning I was 4 months pregnant with my now almost 6 yr old. My dd was just over a yr old.
I fought for my marriage. He took that as a sign to actively hurt me. He was cruel. But I hung on
Over about 3 yrs into it, I was too afraid to leave. I didnt think I could raise my kids alone. I was afraid they would grow up like I grew up.
Feb 8 was a sort of turning point for me. I stood up for my self. I had my say. What happened that morning washed away a lot of fear
But I wasnt yet ready to leave.
Wh tried to prove he was a faithful family man but his m.o. is to be mr wonderful then he slips into his cheating, abusive role.
He is back to that tho I havent yet found the tangable proof of cheating. Just the stank.
Im busy with work and too tired to sit down and plan anything. I do wonder what im doing at work will be a stepping stone to the door or bridge out. Not sure. Just wondering.
Do I regret not leaving? 10000.....% HELL YES!!! In the beginning he was all into her and didnt give a rats ass about the kids or I. So easy to split. I could have gone back home. Or somewhere else.
Now Im on a rollercoaster with a fool who doesnt like me. Definitely doesnt love me . He cares about the kids, yes, but a lot of times they get in the way of what he wants. Im lonely, depressed, miserable, have severe trust issues and dont like being around him bc of how he treats me and his opinion of me.
I will tell my kids if their spouse or SO cheats on them, leave asap. If the person shows signs of cranialrectalomy then try the relationship a second time if thats what they wish. Never give the person a third chance. If they have to constantly monitor their partner, then the relationship is over
I will tell them infidelity may be the new norm, but never let anyone disrespect you.
Learn from Mami's bad choices.