It won't always hurt this bad. I still want to puke when my girls say her name but I no longer feel that keening pain.
The only thing worse than that whore being around my precious girls is someone being unkind to them.
It is absolutely right not to drill the kids about anything.
My 5 year old started telling me stuff about the sad clown completely unsolicited. Some of it was bad. When I asked her if it was true she admitted it wasn't. When I asked why she would tell me something that wasn't true she said she thought it would make me happy.
I asked if she told her dad untrue stories about me and she said she did. When I asked her why she said because he always asked her "Did mum smack you?", "Did mum shout at you?", "Did mum give you dinner?" - she told him lies because it made him happy.
It broke my heart into a million pieces.
I told her it made me sad to hear lies, not happy. Imagine if I told her she could have icecream - that would make her happy, right? Now if I lied about it that would make her sad. She seemed to understand that and the stories have stopped - at least to me.
She also told me she told her IC that I had shouted at her (it was true) and asked me if I was mad. I said no - its true, I will never be mad at her telling the truth. She said she didn't tell IC that daddy shouts/smacks her because he would be mad.
That is my very long-winded way of saying don't put your daughter in this position. It breaks their trust and messes them up.
The sad clown is showing my daughter that she cannot trust him and that the truth will make him mad.
Father of the year, no? Fuckturd.