He knew I was in one email account of his and he changed the password the next day. I have to keep everything I find out quiet. Basically, I'm just building my "information pile."
It sucks because it just fortifies my thoughts that he's an ass.
If you don't come out and say I want access to these things for these reasons, you won't ever get to the end. You will never stop looking, and he will continue to think of ways to deceive you.
Personally, his actions would be screaming to me "get the hell away from him". They show me he is continuing his behaviour. I would be quickly coming to the realization I didn't want to live with such a person.
Through thick and thin we will survive but he gets only one shot at it!
I think at this point I've either reached indifference or I'm just tired.
Am I happy that I have to keep checking on him? Am I happy that he changes his passwords? Hell no! I've stopped asking him questions because he was getting annoyed that I wasn't getting over it already.
I know he'll lie to me more. I've learned how to read his face when he does lie.
Believe me, I don't want to be here. I have a plan, and as soon as I'm back on my feet I'm leaving. My continued snooping is, for lack of a better word, self-preservation. I feel that I need to know what is going under my own roof, and because he'll lie to me about everything I feel that the only way I'll find out the truth is if I snoop.