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User Topic: surviving in pain
mof2
♀ 40287
Member # 40287
Default  Posted: 12:43 PM, August 12th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am new to this forum, but not new to a cheating spouse. My husband walked out on me and my kids in February for another woman. He walked out a week before I was due to give birth to the baby we miscarried in July 2012 and 12 days before our 5th wedding anniversary. Needless to say, February 2013 was not a good month. I have never felt more intense pain in my life. . I didn't even see it coming...completely blindsided. He did have flirtations with other women on Facebook that I caught, but this one I didn't catch and it stuck. He works out of town and was leaving February 11th for work. He gave me a kiss and hug before I left for work and told me he loved me. He left that afternoon for work. I came home from work to find a Valentine's Day card that said "I love you baby! ALWAYS!" and some chocolates. 12 hours later....he asked me for a divorce. I will never understand how people can hurt others like that. I found this quote that says it all.

"People who cheat feel that life is for the taking, and that everyone deserves happiness no matter what the cost. I must remember these tricks if I ever have my soul surgically removed."

Luckily, I am now at the place where I feel relief and realized him leaving was a blessing in disguise. Now she gets to be the one who deals with all his shady, self destructive behavior. Our divorce with be final in a few weeks and then I am FREE!!!!


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
ideservebetter45
♀ 36951
Member # 36951
Default  Posted: 2:30 PM, August 12th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I just wanted to say Im sorry for your pain..but yes you are better off without him because if it wasnt her,it would be someone else.My ex did the same thing.We went on a family vacation in april where we celebrated my birthday and our anniversary.In June he was acting very distant and in July I learned of his affair with the neighbor.He left me and my dd who was five at the time.I was devastated.I never thought i could feel so much pain not only for me but for my dd.But now one year later i realize im better off without him.He is a cheater and will never change.He has cheated on every person he has ever been with and he will cheat on her too.The only thing I hate is sharing my dd with her. Anyway you will be fine! You deserve better! ((hugs))

Posts: 163 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: ideservebetter45
caregiver9000
♀ 28622
Member # 28622
Default  Posted: 3:25 PM, August 12th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome mof2! Glad you are feeling the blessings. Don't feel bad if the roller coaster gets you once in awhile. But hang on to the feeling that the blessings are great! I agree completely.

I am amazed at the quick divorce. I have heard of such things... but was not so fortunate to experience it.


Me: 44, independent, happy, despite co-parenting with a lower muppet
FT "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
DS 13 DS 10
S 5/2010
D 12/2012

Posts: 5918 | Registered: May 2010 | From: a better place
nowiknow23
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Member # 33226
Default  Posted: 3:45 PM, August 12th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome to SI, mof2. So glad you found your way to us.

I came home from work to find a Valentine's Day card that said "I love you baby! ALWAYS!" and some chocolates. 12 hours later....he asked me for a divorce.
Holy whiplash! Someone capable of that kind of mindfuckery is clearly a master at compartmentalization. You sound like you've got strength and determination to spare. Good! There's sunshine ahead for you and your kids, m0f2. Just keep doing what you are doing.


You can call me NIK

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
-Walt Whitman


Posts: 26212 | Registered: Aug 2011
mof2
♀ 40287
Member # 40287
Default  Posted: 8:26 AM, August 13th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank all of you so much. I'm so sorry that all of you have to be here as well. It is such a tough road to be on. @Ideservebetter...your user name DOES say it all. I am staying strong! I have kept in touch with the OW's husband and he actually told me last night that my H has told her that I kicked him out. Um no...begged him not to leave. The fact is he in the middle of a mid life crisis and so is she. They are bat shit crazy.

@Caregiver, he has tax debt and other debt that I need to get away from as quickly as possible. I was the saver and kept our accounts separate because of his spending habits. I also found out that he had been high stakes gambling throughout our whole marriage. He was just really shady.

Holy whiplash! Someone capable of that kind of mindfuckery is clearly a master at compartmentalization. And NIK, I don't know how to put quotes in the box like you do yet, but what you said made me laugh. Thank you and I know blessings are in all of your future!


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
nowiknow23
♀ 33226
Member # 33226
Default  Posted: 8:32 AM, August 13th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have kept in touch with the OW's husband and he actually told me last night that my H has told her that I kicked him out. Um no...begged him not to leave. The fact is he in the middle of a mid life crisis and so is she. They are bat shit crazy.
The truth (that you begged him to stay) is far too unflattering, so of course he'll rewrite the story to his advantage. He's the poor, tossed aside spouse. What. Ever. YOU know the truth. That's all that really matters.

t/j - to put text in a quote box, copy it into your reply box, highlight it, and then click the "quote" button to the left of the text box.


You can call me NIK

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
-Walt Whitman


Posts: 26212 | Registered: Aug 2011
Housefulloflove
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Default  Posted: 9:06 AM, August 13th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Now she gets to be the one who deals with all his shady, self destructive behavior. Our divorce with be final in a few weeks and then I am FREE!!!!

He is disgusting. The type of guy a person should pray they DON'T end up with! I'm sure OW is getting exactly what she deserves.

Right there with your mof2! In about a month my divorce will be final and I'm so close I can taste the freedom! This journey is an incredibly hard one but so many people here prove that life AFTER infidelity can be wonderful!


Me-29 Starting over
ExWH-29 Probable NPD, PA, manchild
3 beautiful young children
DDay 1/20/13 Admits PA
No remorse so NO R. DIVORCED! 9/2013

Posts: 541 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: USA
mof2
♀ 40287
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Default  Posted: 9:42 AM, August 13th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It is hard for me to believe that 6 months ago that I was begging him to come back not being able to see the future and know the blessings that would come out of this...the peace. Her husband just found two months ago and I feel bad for the place he is in, but have reassured him that he will get better. She moved out of the house last week but he still wants her back. I understand that feeling. I am actually going to email her the day the divorce is final and fill her in on my experience with him. H is cooperating with the divorce right now and not taking anything from me (I think out of guilt) and I want it to remain that way. But after it is final, I'm free to express the pain I went through. I stood by that man through his shadiness, gambling, flirting with other women, a suicide attempt due to alcoholism and remained an open book to him. Somebody who stands by a spouse in all those times and supports them and loves them unconditionally...doesn't deserve that kind of treatment.


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
mof2
♀ 40287
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Default  Posted: 10:52 AM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just when I think I'm better...here comes the pain again. We emailed back and forth and he said the following to me:

I wanted to keep feeling the way I did about you and us as i had in the past but it was lost somewhere along the way and I knew it wasn't coming back. Everything was real for a long time, but yes at and toward the end I did fake and force some things trying to make things work. For you to think things between us and between me and the kids were never real is ridiculous. As far as the kids my feelings for them never changed and still haven't. It's just part of what happens when a step parent leaves.

OUCH!!! He "faked" it???


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
ruinedandbroken
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Default  Posted: 11:18 AM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

mof2 - as you can see, your quote is my tag line.

My ex did the same thing. Left me out of the blue to raise two kids aged 3 and 6 by myself. I think you have to be seriously fucked in the head to do that to somebody.


“People who cheat feel that life is for the taking, and that everyone deserves happiness no matter what the cost. I must remember these tricks if I ever have my soul surgically removed."
Me: BS 42. Him: WH 41 2 Kids 6&9
Married 14 yrs Together 21

Posts: 1575 | Registered: Aug 2010
Sparkles
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Default  Posted: 11:23 AM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Everything was real for a long time, but yes at and toward the end I did fake and force some things trying to make things work.

Of course he was faking - he was cheating - leading a double life!!

My stbx did this too. Left me to raise 4 young kids. He needed to be "authentic"

I can't imagine how they can live with themselves, but they do.


Posts: 138 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: NW
SBB
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Member # 35229
Default  Posted: 11:56 AM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Everything was real for a long time, but yes at and toward the end I did fake and force some things trying to make things work.

Chances are he has been a fake his whole life. This is who he is. It has nothing to do with you, OW or anyone else. It is all him.

I know it hurts like hell and it sounds weird to say but you must not take this bullshit to heart. He wasn't faking it at towards the end, he is a fake full.stop. He just stopped wanting to keep up the act once his parasite self decided he needed a new host.

Lather.Rinse.Repeat. New relationship, same cycle. Changing the players does not change the game.


I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!

Posts: 5660 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
mof2
♀ 40287
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Default  Posted: 12:35 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you all for your responses. I to do not understand how someone lives with themselves with that out look on life...how can you ever find a meaningful relationship? I guess you answered that question for me Strong. Rinse, lather, repeat....love it. . How absolutely exhausting and lonely!!! And Ruined...love that quote...sent that to him too. Sparkles, I told him that. He said it just "fizzled". I said of course it "fizzled", you were having an affair instead of focusing your attention on our marriage and getting help. I told him I will feel bad for anyone ends up with (except her) because he views relationships/marriages as disposable. Sad way to go through life....never satisfied.


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
mof2
♀ 40287
Member # 40287
Default  Posted: 2:57 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Lather.Rinse.Repeat. New relationship, same cycle. Changing the players does not change the game.

Strong, this quote is going to be stuck in my head and I appreciate it so much! Thank you!


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
sleepless34
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Default  Posted: 5:31 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hi, I am also sorry to hear your story. Going through this really stinks. My heart literally hurts, my whole chest does. I am reading all these books about infidelity and divorce as I am thinking about it all the time anyway, so why not learn something.

I feel sadness, rage, confusion, violated, and 1000 other emotions from minute to minute. Some days I feel stronger and some days I feel defeated. It is like a really bad movie and I just want to walk out, but I can't.

My DDay was 3 weeks ago tonight. I feel like the world has been turned upside down and I was so happy just prior to that!

I hope someday I feel your relief and that it is meant to be...now it just feels horrible....


Me BW- 40ish, awesome
Cheating scusband 40ish
2 kids, elementary school age
Bomb dropped Aug 4 out of nowhere...

Posts: 443 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Hell
FieldsOfLavender
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Default  Posted: 5:38 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm sure OW is getting exactly what she deserves.

I told stbx that they deserved each other but not in a good way.


Posts: 199 | Registered: May 2013 | From: East Coast, USA
mof2
♀ 40287
Member # 40287
Default  Posted: 7:58 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

My DDay was 3 weeks ago tonight. I feel like the world has been turned upside down and I was so happy just prior to that!

Ugh Sleepless34...you are still in shock. My heart ACHES for you. The emotions that you go through the first 2 months (at least for me) were the worst. You basically just can't wrap your brain around it. It sounds like you were blindsided...I was too. I wish I could hug you!!!! It will get better, I promise. Just hang in there!!!! If you want to send me a personal message and we can chat back and forth, PLEASE feel free. Thinking of you!


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
newlysingle
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Default  Posted: 11:40 PM, August 25th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

mof2 - I have a very similar story and timeline to you. My STBX came home from a business trip in January and told me that he wanted a divorce. No reason other than he wasn't "happy". Two days earlier, we were on the phone discussing how we were going to celebrate our 8th wedding anniversary.

I then discovered the A in early March and kicked him out of the house. She moved in with him from out of state immediately. Our divorce should also be final any day. I actually checked the court website today to see if it had been done. My attorney sent it over to the courts about a week ago and she said it takes about 1-2 weeks to be finalized.

Like you, I have also realized that I'm much better and happier without him. I'm really optimistic about my future and realize how much he dragged me down. He also was very financially irresponsible, so I'm really enjoying being able to manage my own money.

This is a horrible situation to be in, but I now see it as a blessing in disguise. I'm glad that I will get a second chance at finding true love. I just need to take the time to heal and figure out why I made such a bad choice the first time around.


BW - Me (38)
XWH -The Gnat
OW - Hello Kitty the Whore Engaged to the Gnat. I hear the white trash, wedding bells as we speak.
M for 8 years, together for 10
1 DD (7), 1 DS (2)
Dday 3/13
Happily Divorced 9/20/13

Posts: 961 | Registered: Mar 2013
mof2
♀ 40287
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Default  Posted: 11:12 AM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Newlysingle, our stories are similar! My H was and still is very financially irresponsible. He works contract and makes a lot of money, but also spends a lot of money. We/He owes $25,000 in taxes by October 15th. I had it put in the divorce decree that he takes that because I had taxes taken out of my check and I could not get him to pay quarterly payments. He has no retirement, savings, anything. I did help him get his credit up to above 800 about 6 months before he walked out. I got one of his credit card bills that he had maxed out and not paid. It had a late fee and interest tagged onto it...there goes his credit again.

I also just got an email from my attorney that the divorce decree should be finished this afternoon. As long as he doesn't raise stink about anything, this should be done within the next few weeks.

Cheers to being happy again and finding someone we deserve and who deserves us!!


BW - Me 43
WH - Cheating Swine 43
Dday - February 12, 2013....a week before I was to give birth to the child I miscarried and 12 days before our 5th anniversary.

Posts: 316 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: DFW
newlysingle
♀ 38735
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Default  Posted: 1:33 PM, August 26th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yes, my STBX also has maxed out credit cards that he's not paying. I also helped him get good credit and we were debt free other than our house. Well, when he started the A he opened up cards behind my back and started charging them up like crazy. He stopped contributing to his retirement about 2 years ago and we did have savings (thanks to me), but I took it all in the divorce. I am also taking half of his retirement which there wasn't a lot of.

He is going to be screwed financially without me, but I love to say NOT MY PROBLEM! His skankwhore appears to be just as financially irresponsible, so they'll make a great pair. We'll see if their love lasts through bankruptcy court.


BW - Me (38)
XWH -The Gnat
OW - Hello Kitty the Whore Engaged to the Gnat. I hear the white trash, wedding bells as we speak.
M for 8 years, together for 10
1 DD (7), 1 DS (2)
Dday 3/13
Happily Divorced 9/20/13

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