I only found SI about a year and a half ago. I was almost 4.5 years past dday.
As much as my H and I had R'd I still struggled with my feelings for the OW and my rage/hate for the friend I thought I knew.
Because of the collective wisdom here I was able to put her behind me and walk away from the negative energy I let control my life, for that, I will be forever grateful.
I think it is time for me to go, and close this chapter of my life. The A isn't in my life on a daily basis anymore and I think I should move on and begin to focus my energy in another direction. It's hard to let go of something that has brought such enormous comfort.
I can't even begin to name the people that have helped me over the last 18 months. The stories and help everyone offers, not just A related but life and BTDT kind of insight. I don't think I will ever find a spot so safe IRL.
Thanks to the many hands that run and keep this site safe for everyone.
It's a long road, one I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I pray everyone finds their own way out to a happier, healthier place.
Be good to you, and Thank you.
A special thanks to AN, for your wisdom and support in the oddly parallel lives we seem to lead. (((hugs)))