I don't really know what I want from this post. Maybe some advice. Maybe to have it pointed out to me how I'm full of crap. Maybe both. Thoughts?
Thoughts. Where to begin. Well, Aubrie did a pretty thorough job of that.
Sobriety is going well. Actually not that hard to maintain.
I've been clean and sober for nearly 19 years now, and I have observed a lot of folks (many now deceased, or just...poof... disappeared) who said things along the lines of your words above. Glad you're sober. Glad you feel its going well. And may I respectfully and imho suggest if the seas of sobriety are dead calm and feeling easy, to grab your telescope and carefully scan the horizon. You WILL find something heading your way...guaran-effing-teed...that IS hard. Very. If not, then you're a lucky one. A one-in-a-million one.
I am on medication for depression and anxiety which seems to help.
Early in my sobriety I had meds suggested to me. I found a different IC. As someone who abused illegal substances, and alcohol, I knew I could never NOT abuse prescribed pills. They scared the hell out of me. I mention this just an aside, and am not suggesting anything related to your experience in this regard which is between you and your medical professionals.
After one major surgery a decade ago, I was handed a jar the size of a football, filled with morphine derived pain meds, on the way out of the hospital. My pain was rather acute, so I handed them to my wife, told her to take three out, and destroy the rest. I asked for one in the middle of the first night. And never used the other two. My surgeons KNEW my chemical dependency history, and STILL sent me on my merry way with a near lifetime supply of goodies. After another surgery (oh, I've got scars...) a few years later...same thing. Goodies galore. Took not one of the peanut M&M sized feel good pellets. Because, you know, if ONE makes you feel good...then THREE might really make you feel really good...and washed down with a vodka tonic to activate them...well...definitely the pain stands no chance, at least until it comes back...