On the day of our anniversary he said "I wasn't able to get a card because we haven't been apart since you asked. I suppose it defeats the purpose now." I explained that I needed that so I had something to hold onto when I was having doubts. Later he said he would have to write me a letter. 4 days later I'm still waiting
maybe... he doesn't truly understand the importance to me, just plain doesn't want to do it, forgot, isn't really committed to R, the list in my head keeps growing. maybe he hasn't had time (He's been working 12hour days since), or am I just making excuses for him again?
I want to talk to him about it, but isn't that the same as begging for it? If he can't provide that with out begging, do I really want it anyway? Will I believe anything that's written? Am I just being selfish expecting him to honor that request?
I'm beginning to wonder if he is still involved with OW and all the right things he is doing are just a smoke screen. Almost as if he's been on this site and read the things I should look for from a WS wanting to R.
It's hard since they work at the same location. WS says I can come there whenever I want. But I can't just walk in, the doors are locked at all times. You have to have special clearance or be escorted to enter & she could always leave through the backdoor if she's there.
[This message edited by soconfusednow at 11:57 AM, August 22nd (Thursday)]