I am 11 months out and was angry most of this week, but I recently had some dark days of depression. The ones in which you accomplish nothing, and you are absolutely out of touch with what's happening around you because you can't see past your fog of sadness.
I thought I was crazy to be that depressed at this point, but after reading some more here it seems it's quite normal. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just not doing the mental work to "get it out of my head" and think of all the positives.
My H and I have been fighting a lot this week because he thinks I just want to be angry. I am short-tempered with my kids all the time. I was not that kind of mom before all of this!
I think it's just overwhelming at times to accept that this is what our new life looks like. It sucks no matter what path we choose. We can be as optimistic as can be, but ultimately we are going to trigger again. Just knowing that our happiness can be interrupted like that is depressing in and of itself.
