Hi everyone,
my heart is shattered in millions of piece, the problem is that I think its always been like this. My significant other has a emotional relationship with someone he met on a dating site. This isnt the first time hes done this. I have caught him many times before. But this time is different. He calls this woman every morning on his way to work for about 74 mins. On his way home, and everytime hes out. I found out thru our phone records. I never check them but I did this time, and I found her number and more info. I've always been afraid of going thru his phone, Im afraid of finding out how foolish I've been all these years, and what makes me feel even worst, Im expecting. It was a completely planned baby, and it hurts me to know Im in this position, I dont know if hes taking advantage of it, or what. He has been very verbal about not ending this "friendship" and Im at lost for any words. I cry constantly, Ive gone as far as asking God to take this child from me. I dont want him to suffer along with me. I know thats selfish of me, and No i would never hurt my baby, but its so painful to lay in bed next to someone who I envisioned my whole life with. He is my everything. I have gone above and beyond for this man. And all i get is the left overs of his time. I want to stop loving him so bad. I wish i could look at him without having any feelings for him.
I have no one to talk to, Im afraid of judgment.
Please forgive me if i dont make any sense my toughts are all over the place.
[This message edited by onelove27 at 2:31 PM, August 16th (Friday)]
