[This message edited by blindsided03 at 2:03 PM, August 16th (Friday)]
Just one small disagreement -
I don't have a right to be angry, and I don't know how to cope with that.
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
You deserve so much better. I hope you are in counseling. BPDs inately gravitate towards super nice folks. There has been some damage done.
Something that helped me know I was making the right decisions:: Google
"Warning Signs You're Dating a Loser," by Dr. Joseph Carver.