You are through all the firsts now - I found the antiversary of the day we got together which happened a few months before the DD antiversary was the hardest for me. By the time the DD antiversary came around I was in celebration mode.
I celebrated how different my life is now. How much more I'm getting out of every single moment of my life. What a better mother I am.
I savour all of it and I am celebrating all of it.
My triggers are different now - I trigger about things that I'm mad at myself about. I trigger about all the time I wasted being miserable. Far better than the yearning kind of triggers I was getting in that first year.
Welcome to the other side of Annus Horribilis, brother - with all of that awful stuff behind us. It is a glorious place to be!
[This message edited by StrongButBroken at 6:59 AM, August 18th (Sunday)]