8 weeks ago my husband of 4 years left me. We have been together since HS (10 years) we hve 2 kids. He owns his own business and I have my career. One day we got in a fight and I told him to leave for the night. This apparently made him snap and he left for good a week later. Throughout this 8 weeks I have been keeping a close eye on his phone and text usage. The first day I saw a number in his text history and it was a lot so I asked about it and he said it was his friend. I didn't see this number again and no other numbers were frequent. But something inside of me told me there was more to this than just snapping and being unhappy.
Background: we got pregnant at 20 married at 23 second child at 24. He started his own business 2 years ago and I started my career shortly after. This past year has been very busy and we have argued about him not respecting my time and missing dinner most nights.
The other day I went back to the cell records and noticed that the original number I saw was in the text usage 3 weeks prior to him leaving. From June 1-June 26 there were daily texts sent back and forth. Day and night. And I mean 7am-1am every hour. So basically I could of been sitting right next to him and he was texting her. I confronted him about it and he still said it was his friend joe. I looked up the number and paid the fee toget a name of the cell and it was in fact a female. I confronted again and told him if he didnt tell me what happened then I would just find a way to get the text transcripts. He finally admitted that he had been talking with her. She was easy to talk to and I wasnt giving him attention. He still claims nothing else happened (I don't believe that right now).
I feel like a pathetic woman because even though I hate him right now and couldn't imagine being around him, I still have this hope that our marriage can be saved.
I called him today to ask him to come by so he can tell me the story start to finish. I have these questions that cause so much anxiety. I asked if he still wanted a divorce, he said I think that's all that's left now. I said say yes or no and he said yes. He says he stopped talking to her shortly after he left because he knew it was wrong.
I hate him right now but I still want my marriage to work. He says he doesn't love me anymore. I don't know how to get over ALL of this.
Any advice is welcome.