I am listening to the audio book of "How Can I Ever Trust You Again?: Infidelity: From Discover to Recover in Seven Steps" by Andrew G. Marshall.
After the speaker quoted a woman from one of the case studies saying that it was easier for her WH to hurt her than it was for him to turn down his OW.
Its just made me realise that, that is how it was for my WBF. He would have rather hurt me than say no to OW and cancel on her or not reply to her.
Its bringing back a lot of pain. I was that unimportant to him
WBF = PA
Ow = 19(at the time)
WBF A = 08/10/2012-17/10/2012
D-Day = 24/01/2013
"It was easier for him to hurt me than it was for him to turn her down"