Hello everyone,
I've not been on in a while, it's been 8 months since D-day,
I thought we were doing well in R, I thought I was finding peace with what happened, triggers are few and far between, for the most part we are doing well,
My WH works locally and with men only and hasn't been into a bar since D-day, he's either with me or at work but now due to a career change he has to go away for two weeks for training, home at weekends,
I feel sick, it's taken me right back to D-day
I don't trust that given the opportunity ,he'd choose differently this time around (WH had 1 ONS and confessed) just this time he wouldn't tell me,
he's been doing all the right things and I honestly can't think of anything since finding out that he's said or done for me to be suspicious but I just feel so anxious,
I'm angry again, how could he do this to me, our family, I'm changed forever I hate what I've become, if he goes I feel he's laughing at me, what a fool I am,
Parents often say "I'd do anything for my kids" well "anything" is becoming to much for me, my tank is full, I can't take another drop 
