Well, I'm just crushed. It all started a few months ago when I found pics and videos of my gf pleasuring herself, a long with random pictures of male parts!
We moved in after 7 months of dating. She pretty much was doing this with since the very beginning of our relationship (the pictures had dates and time taken) and the last picture taken was 4-5 days before she got caught. So, obviously it was an ongoing thing.
You might be asking yourself, what's so hard about the decision, to anyone with a brain it is a clear decision of leaving that person. But, according to her, she is pregnant with my child. She is due in 5 weeks, and I do not trust her with my child. My girlfriend would make videos, exchange pics and what not when I was 5-10ft away on my desk. She even used the time after my surgery, where I could barely move, to make videos. This happened for almost 1.5 years. During this time, she neglected me, preferred to masturbate with guys online than have sex with me. She would be so bold, making videos on my bed, bathroom, when im standing 5feet away! No respect whatsoever.
Why you might think I don't trust my gf with the baby? She was making videos and taking pictures when she had a full on pregnant belly, which to me shows a lack of respect for the baby. I don't want my child growing up in that environment.
She swears she never cheated physically, but I am getting a DNA test done regardless of what she says since she has been lying to me since the start.
We had a big fight last night, where I told her she would be an unfit mother because she puts pleasing other men online in front of her daughter and family life. She gambled that away.
I don't know what to do, I feel so betrayed. I feel like my best friend died before stabbing me in the back.
For those of you who think online camming or relationships isn't cheating, IT IS. Any sexual interaction between you and someone who is not your partner IS CHEATING. This type of cheating is just a stepping stone for the physical form.
She has given me full access to everything I've asked. But, she has lied since being caught.
DDay was June 18th, one day after our first birthing class (lovely, no?) and the real shock came about two weeks later when I found out she was saying I love you and hubby to a guy for 7 months. My WS said she stopped all contact with OM once she decided to keep the baby. I can somewhat confirm this with phone logs, emails and attitude change I saw. She also confessed to meeting someone online in person for lunch. I've read their logs and it was never sexual, but that doesn't mean she hasn't met other guys and had sex with them.
Since I was neglected in every way, I was getting detached from her, and now after the A, it feels like we were pulled in opposite directions, she seemed to be more "in love" but I am feeling the complete opposite.
I want things to work if its my baby.
First thing on my mind is the paternity test.
WW has been dealing with this in a very negative way (cutting herself) so she's trying to find a good therapist to deal with that.
I'm trying my hardest not to lash out and put more stress on the pregnancy, but it's getting very hard to do so.