A wise old SI veteran once said that all affairs are "revenge" affairs. Revenge for a shitty marriage... Revenge for what a WS isn't feeling at home, getting at home... Revenge for a shitty childhood... Whatever. It's revenge in the mind of the wayward for a wrong that has been done them- real or imagined.
I understand that you think that you deserve whatever comes to you. And I can get on that page with you because I remember feeling that way... and then I didn't anymore. but believe me when I tell you that the anger will come. Because now you are just 2 people with shitty coping mechanisms trying to sift through all the shit that you have done to each other.
Healing her is important. Healing yourself is much much more imperative. From your choices and actions- and hers.
[This message edited by trytoforgive at 12:03 AM, August 21st (Wednesday)]