Keep Calm and Happy On!
I just don't know what is wrong with me. DDAY was Dec 2011, D was final last October. For a while I was all good,happy, knew I could do this.
Now, over the last couple of months I feel like a blob. No ambition, house is getting cluttered, I stopped working out because it seems like a bother, disorganization/ poor planning on grocery shopping, on and on. I just seem overwhelmed. It sounds like depression to me, but why NOW?
I also can't hold onto a thought for long and I know many of the jobs I am applying for I will not have the mental capacity to the job well-- ie Admin asst, even receptionist. I used to be bright and a quick learner, now I can't even remember what my son has for homework.
I know 1 contrib factor is I have the children everynight since I put a stop to the ON with OW. That is for the best as she is a predator and in SC the age of consent is 16 unless the older person is a teacher. So, legally she can "do" my son....It's a challenge having them every night. On the weekends they go to Dads until 10 or so and come home.
Also,,I was so geared up last year for the trial that did not happen, I wonder if I can finally stop and feel feelings, not staying on high alert anymore is contributing to this state I'm in.
Anyone else seem this way?
[This message edited by homewrecked2011 at 5:59 PM, August 22nd (Thursday)]
me BS 52
him - 46
married 15 years DIVORCED 10 31 12
children - ds15 ds12
I gave a 24hour ultimatum then went to attorney next day