Since I've spent over $12,000 in legal fees so far, I must admit I have been trying to negotiate with the FTFred so that we can avoid our 6-hour trial coming up. I don't want to spend any more money for something so freaking obvious!! I ignore all his digs at me and focus on the kids, but what causes me to end the conversation for tonight? Him texting, "Get over it. I never loved you and never will."
Yeah, like I'm really still in love with you and your abusive manipulating bullshit you constantly pull on me. I tried to get you on meds. I tried to get you in counseling. I tried to help you with your FOO issues, but I'm DONE!! Grow the fuck up and stop using your past as an excuse for your behaviors. I've even called CPS on you and your skank moron!! And that skank is sleeping at my house and playing mommy to my kids. And you think I want you back?? You think I'm not over you?? Really?? Focus on the kids already!! I love them more than I hate you. Take a fucking hint and get to the same place asshole! PUT THIER BEST INTERESTS FIRST!! Oh, but my bad, you're too NPD to love anyone more than yourself..
But now I just have to share a few lyrics I heard to today that I think fit the situation. Would never send them to him since he would never get it, but they make me feel better..
Daughtry- "Over You"
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU
MORE THAN YOU, MORE THAN YOU KNOW.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I GOT OVER YOU.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A LOT OF OTHERS OPENED UP,
SO DID MY EYES SO I COULD SEE
THAT YOU NEVER WERE THE BEST FOR ME.