Today is a good day. BS woke up pissed off from last night. Admit that I am in denial and me being the most contradicting person in the world, I say one thing do another or I want this and do another. I cant make up my mind for nothing I'm a confused individual. Looking forward to IC tomorrow its been awhile since Feb. I think it will help because after resigning from my job in Feb and lost my insurance, i stopped going. From then thought I can do this on my own, am I wrong about that.
I have been to me feel like I have been controlling my anger lately, but holding on to it is hard at times. Seeing my BS angry this morning realized how anger can control someone. I know it was out of anger but some stuff from my childhood got thrown back in my face, one thing I never told anyone. I got a bit aggitated but stayed calm and towards the end I did get frustrated because I said something contradicting and got questioned about it, got frustrated and didnt have answer that no more clear thoughts.
Anger has been my biggest issue and it has definitely lead me to this position. I saw my BS this type of way and she never was, now she is what I always thought of her to be, I took her for granted and created this. Now her anger is out and I dont know how to respond to it but stand there and shut up.
I feel like Im babbling and not making any sense right now, I want to know how do yall handle the anger and what are your steps??? What do you do when things are being said that are to belittle you and make you feel even more shitty than you are?? I want her to vent all that anger out because I put her in this position and its just sometimes I dont know what to do and help on it.