Idk what I'm still doing here. He's a selfish pig and whether or not he is cheating or not, he will always be a selfish pig.
All we do is fight. He made a rude sexual joke and it may very well have been a joke I was offended. He got mad at me for being mad. He got a call from a friend to be a dd and I was a little uneasy about it cause i knew the girl was at the bar. He left anyway. Says its because I was already mad and it didn't matter. He didn't go in. He has to pass a physical test. We have a treadmill at home, he hasn't touched it. But now is in a hurry to go run at the gym because he has to pass. Another thing that makes me uneasy. For reason related to his cheating. He says well failing makes him uneasy and he's looking forward not back.
He always tells me he lives in the present not the past and I need to also.
He gets so mad I won't sing or dance for him. Like he hasn't crushed my self esteem or given me 100 reasons to not want to be all happy.
He has weeks where he is perfect. But he can never consistently be helpful to me. It always comes back to its hard for him too.
Why am I still here ??