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womaninflux posted 8/24/2013 05:33 AM

Unbeknownst to my SAWH, I saw my attorney recently. I left the office with an overwhelming sense of relief. I first went to see lawyer in March about 5 days after DD. This visit was to give him an update about where I am in the reconciliation attempt process and he gave me some insight into what I need to be working on and thinking about. It was valuable to hear his experience as someone who has seen a lot of cases with my set of issues.

SAWH even commented on how peaceful I seemed the evening I returned from the lawyer's office (as I mentioned above, he was in the dark and still is).

And obviously, it doesn't help that we got into a big fight tonight after dinner. Am I just looking for a way to get out of this M? Or is R really unattainable? I feel like as more and more of SAWH's issues are uncovered, we have less and less in common and it just seems like - as someone on here pointed out - there is a rebuilding process and we have to climb a mountain but first this huge hole to fill before we can even start to build the mountain we must climb.

I am beginning to think it is telling that I find more PEACE from visiting lawyer than I do after therapist.

Undone1 posted 8/24/2013 14:30 PM

Peace is hard to come by...hope it lasts for while as you make difficult decisions.

LosferWords posted 8/24/2013 15:01 PM

I think that feeling of peace likely stems from a gaining of power and control over your own life after hearing what your rights are, and what life would look like if you were to choose the path of S/D. That's a very important feeling to have. And yes, R is still attainable, but only if you want it to be, and only if your husband puts in the work required.

Awesome for you!

Skan posted 8/24/2013 16:05 PM

Knowledge is power. Power leads to calmness and peace. Perhaps that's why you feel peaceful after visiting the lawyer. Because you're gaining knowledge about what your rights are and what tomorrow can look like. I know that once I came to the conclusion that I could, if necessary, walk away and be perfectly fine financially and mentally, I gained a lot of inner peace.

tushnurse posted 8/24/2013 17:08 PM

This is why I always tell new members to go sooner than later. Get a feel for things take away the what ifs nd could shuldas.
It helps you to understand that no matter what happens you will be ok

Enjoy it. Use this time to get strong.

Missymomma posted 8/24/2013 17:15 PM

Woman, I agree that it is about regaining your power. The realization that you are not helpless and have a choice is actually a first step to R or D. It is about discovering what YOU want. That is the great part of recovering from codependency, not doing what the anyone else thinks is right for you but yourself.

5674emt posted 8/24/2013 19:29 PM

Great for you to be finding some Peace.

I have not felt the desire to visit a Lawyer, but I have written out a list of requests if I decide R is not working. I have also written a list of what I need to keep R on the right track. This has brought me a little closer to Peace.