It has been exactly 1 month from DDay. A lot has changed in this period. The roller coaster has definitely gotten better. I'm able to start recognizing when it's going down and though I can't stop it, I am able to deal with it. The WW seems to have FINALLY gotten on board and is really working towards healing me and this M.
We went on a couple of dates this weekend and had a good time despite. The A was always "there" but we were able to act and H&W. She said she beats herself up after weekends like this and it reminds her of how good it really was and what she's effed up.
We are going to our vacation home where my wife carried on her internet PAs this weekend. I'm really worried about how I'm going to deal with the upcoming triggers. I am already feeling anxiety creep in and we are four days from leaving.